Current Client Journal Excerpts

C. N. - Director of Business Development, Writer, Female, Age 37 - Mar. 16/05

It was interesting and comforting to hear about the alchemist and that there is a notion of having to go through a period of putrefaction before transformation. That has been very much what the last several months have felt like - exploring and giving in to revulsion, humiliation, fear, and disgust and seeing where those experiences took me. All those things were rolled up in the experience I had in last week's session, and the aftermath of transformation and compassion seem to represent a turning of the tide. My awareness level on a moment to moment basis seems to have taken a quantum leap in the past week and I feel like I'm more in my body. I also feel like my intentionality is having a more direct and immediate impact on what happens in my life right now. I go through these waves of feeling more and less connected to universal knowledge and to the knowledge that resides in my subconscious. This is a peak period. I get very excited and focused at these times because a little bit of intention seems to bear so much fruit. It feels like following a trail of breadcrumbs or like an Easter egg hunt where each find reveals another clue. It's fun to interact with the world in this way. I'm greatly amused and entertained by the creative ways in which things are revealed. I also get energy from the sense that I'm doing the right thing, like there's no place I'd rather be and nothing I'd rather be doing.

C. N. - Apr. 13/05

How lovely to literally erupt in an expression of joy! I can't help but think that that kind of experience has to make an indelible imprint on a person. As I was lying there enjoying the feeling, images of all the things I have appreciated today went through my head. I realize that I am much loved. I know that, but I felt it in a different way, as a kind of peace. … I often feel very connected to everything and very expansive and joyous, but I never realized that I was still holding back something in those moments. The release was incredible.

C.N. - Apr. 20/05

It is good to have someone to share the larger context of what's happening now with. I feel extremely alive and completely fulfilled, like suddenly there are extra dimensions of life and experience opening up that offer huge new perspectives and insight and also a tremendous sense of being connected to and an agent of the divine.I feel like a modern day alchemist, combining ideas and feelings, mine and others and opportunities and words to create higher level consciousness and transformation. The elements needed to create change are available in endless abundance, but are overlooked by most because they simply don't know how to put them together to create something precious! But I'm beginning to see that it can be done at will and I'm having fun experimenting to see what can be created with what's on hand at any given moment. This kind of creativity makes me feel ecstatic, giddy, in awe of life's possibilities. This is why I'm enjoying existence so much right now.

D. N. - Photographer, IT consultant, Male, Age 33

I think that I'm starting to understand where confidence comes from.

D. N.

The end of the session had me actually feeling relaxed. I felt like I had been transported to a sanctuary. There was a distinct feeling of the presence of ancient stone and of plants.

R. L. - Film Executive, Male, Age 46

Today was full of my stories of the changes I've been experiencing… I've been aware of a lifting of fear and judgment in my mind set.

D. C. - Nurse, Female, Age 44

I got lost then. I got lost in the toxic waste - shame and loss - horrible disgusting and humiliating shame and loss in that place. But I touched it today - I feel like I can finally start to move in this place.

D. C.

I felt my energy very different today. A lot of the congestion cleared and I felt very aware of everyone.

C. D. - Nurse, Female, Age 41

I know that this is a very deep, core place in me…and I can feel and see more clearly now than ever before, how this is affecting my life.

M. M. - Musician, Male, Age 36

I'm so appreciative of these sessions. Jim and Caroline seem to ground me in this difficult stuff. "I feel like my life is a lie" was the expression that came up for me this week. A carefully created construct that has basis in reality but it is not authentic in that there is no direct contact with my soul needs just my interpretation of them. I'm searching for that authentic being and expression of my soul and self and how to live that in the world. Through my HEP work I came to see that I don't know what I'm here for but I know its something that belongs to me and it's the deep and true me but I need to let go of the false constructs I've created first before I will find it.

I need to sit in the discomfort of the driving place without doing anything about it.'

I don't have my ideal relationship but my process is about that surrendered melting that I crave in relationship and its what I need to do and learn with myself.

I need to become what I crave in relationship and sit in the fire of loneliness until I blossom into that relationship inside which could be quite profound and rich.

The work and energy I expend on my false/construct of my life which I am very invested in is draining me and could be a reason for my Chronic Fatigue Syndrome.

J. P. - Stylist, Female, Age 40

I'm noticing how I'm changing. I surprise myself by how comfortable and confident I think I'm becoming. I am comfortable with my feelings even though it hurts a lot. … Normally in a relationship I would try to cover up how I feel because I'm afraid it will scare him away.

J. T. - Actor, Female, Age 40

Tonight I feel totally grounded in what I want and what I need. I think this is the first time ever that I've vocalized in clear, concise language what I want. That felt good."

C. L. - Government Policy Advisor, Female, Age 36

Wow, a lot of work has come to an amazing place. I feel steady with what's here and it doesn't have to be all upbeat to feel steady. Much depth wok - I am feeling it in my body and psyche. It's a nice open feeling and depth is part of it. I feel more solid in myself and it feels good to look with gratitude on all that brought me here. The companionship of openness Caroline offered has been soul affirming and invaluable. I don't think many people realize how much journeying to the dark it may take to create a life.